I set my alarm this morning for 6:30am, but snoozed at least 3 times. I finally found it in me to get my butt out of bed by 7:40am. I could not even imagine myself stepping into the gym that early in the morning, but all I kept thinking about was that extra 20 lbs I needed to lose. By 7:50am, I was on that treadmill bumpin' my pandora to Beyonce. I sit here as I write this blog shortly after returning from the gym for the second time today. Exhausted, no doubt.
It's a tough society we live in today especially with all the pressures of living in a size 2 world. Hey, they say "thin is no longer in". But, I am sure a large portion of today's women strive to look like they did when they were in college. I will be the first to stand up and say, "Hi, my name is Tracy and I am addicted to losing weight". As a young, single professional, I have seen how my appearance has personally affected my professional career, as well as my dating life. They say that times have changed in the corporate world, but I still feel that "d&*ks" rule this world. How many times have you seen the male manager hire a female because her double d's looked hot in a corset? It baffles me how men would rather hire a female for her looks, rather than her skills, experience, and education. Trust me, I have been a victim of it and I have been given no other choice but to look at the other direction.
They say women have it easy when they've got the goods...and it's absolutely true. These days women strive for beauty in so many ways: bleached blonde hair, fake eyelashes, botox lips, fake a$$, and silicon boobies. I have not seen more plastic surgery than here in Miami. You can't blame a chick if she has to hit up the gym twice a day...look at the thousands of dollars worth of plastic surgery she has to compete with.
Okay, so we all know that I am of Asian descent...ha, boy is it tough out here in Miami to date. Believe it or not, I am part of the 2% asian population that exists here in Florida. Miami has all kinds of beautiful people here, but again not many of them are Asian. As a result, the men here are not normally attracted to women like me. That's okay, I am not trippen at all. I proud of my culture and the beauty that has evolved from it. But, I aint gonna lie. Dating in Miami is tough. With the wide range of men and women here, people are allowed to be picky because they have "options". At the end of the day, the younger, "cosmetically enhanced" woman and the man with the 7-figure income is what will likely bring the two people together. Superficial, yes. Reality, double yes.
Living in Miami for over two years, I used to be so disgusted with the fakeness of the people in this city. After my first 6 months, I finally brushed my opinions aside and accepted it for what it is. The pretentious mindset and the superficial energy of the many "miamians" will never change. I used to spend too much time worrying about how everyone acted, but instead I should have focused on keeping that positive energy in my life. Life and maturity itself has changed me. I told myself that by my 30th birthday, I want to feel and look my best. It's easier said than done, but the focus and perserverance is my driving force. I feel I am more ready than I have ever been. Screw the liposuction and a$$ implants... yes, I will admit that I have considered those two options. Even considered going to Colombia coz I heard the greatest asses are produced there. It's that time to work hard and lose the distractions. Can't let no man tell me that I am not good enough and no woman dare be a threat to me.
Ladies, please continue to tell yourself that you are beautiful inside and out. I have victimized my own self by allowing to think that all the beauty is dependent on the color of your tan, the size of your chest and how hot you look when you rock them Louboutins. I am a proud, independent woman that views her self as smart, sexy and confident. And so should you. If all else fails, watch a few episodes of the Biggest Loser.. that always seems to help me get motivated :)
Aside from the unfortunate reality of superficial values and judgements that seem to surround you, may I suggest another form of motivation for you? Health. Plain and simple: good health. I'm sure there are many in your life that want you around for a long time.
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